| Jul. 10th, 2005 @ 09:52 pm About me |
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Hi every one, my name is Jeanie I am 14 years old and have anorexia with bulimic tendencies. Ever since I can remember I can't eat without feeling guilty. A few months ago my life was put on hold when my mother sent my to the hospital for my Eating disorder, me at a frail 74.2lbs nobody would look at me wothout cringing or pionting and NOBODY would take pictures of me, I was checked into harberview medical center, and 4 months later I had been released. At this time I was fat and I new it. So on my way home I was promising myself a new regimin,but I soon discovered that I was not in the room I left. My parents went through it and destroyed all of my thing linking me to my once beloved Eating Disorder. My posters, pamflets, books such as "diary of an Anorexic girl", "life size" and, the one I related most to "Second star to the right" my Binders upon binders of thinspiration WERE ALL GONE! At that piont I couldn't keep my tears in, me such a once strong willed girl who never cried burst into tears knowing it was all gone. I wanted my old life back, them I started to comfort eat. One day when my mom was gone I snuck into her room and onto one of my many scales she had hidden from me and I saw the needle go where it had never gone before. A hefty 145lbs. I didn't know what to say. So I promised myself no more comfort eating, but being under the watchful eyes of my parents, how can I win in this fight and lose these extra pounds? I find myself asking all the time. I know the answer I am smarter than them and I don't need food, I mean JUST LOOK AT THESE FAT RESERVES I COULD LIVE OFF MYSELF FOREVER! Thats what I planned and plan on doing! So now I have stumbled upon thinspiration and you know what I have gone through and what I AM going through. Thinspiration is what I need not only that I need you guys!
sincerely *~*Jeanie*~*
P.S.
Stats
Heigt- 5'4''
crnt wieght- 132lbs
hi wieght- 145 lbs
low wieght- 70lbs
STtrgetwieght- 110
LTtrgetwieght- 85lbs |
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